It is that time of year again, time for me to reflect a year added to my life, a year added to my age. What have I achieved this 2006? Truly I can’t say much, except that I have reaped the rewards of my toil in 2005. Might I say that this year I can hold my head up high, because I have partially redeemed my wayward ways of yesteryears.
This year also means that I am truly a civil servant, here to serve the masses. This year, I worked hard, harder than most years in my life. Mostly for my self, for that inner satisfaction. Just so that I know, I can do anything that I will myself to. This year I made a promise to do everything as they should be done, and I’m glad that I have done what I could if not the best of my capabilities.
This year has truly been satisfying. Words will never be enough to explain everything, and some things are meant to never be spoken/written. It is high time that I reward myself for a job well done, but hmmm, it seems I can’t make up my mind. Perhaps I will take it slow, and truly peruse what I should get. A watch would be nice, as I haven’t wore one for a full year now (good excuse for being late). I have been eyeing a certain Casio Protrek PRG-80YT watch for months now. But a handphone would be good too, to replace my ailing O2 Mini, perhaps I will truly get the desirable Dopod D810. But money is always the barrier, between want and need. But is it?
In just a few hours, 2.30AM actually, I will officially be 26 years old according to my birth certificate. For most of my life, my birthday night is the time that I would actually try to be alone and reflect on what I have achieved. The exception would be the party with my batchmates at USM, the only time I wasn’t alone.
Let’s have a look back into my past, what have I achieved in this past 26 odd years. Generally there was nothing special about me. I never went to any nursery, but instead I went to a kindergarten at SK Lemal at the age of 5. After that I sort of hang around my mom’s school when I was six. At 7 I enrolled in the same school as my sister, SRK Sultan Ibrahim Satu. The premier school of a sort at that time. Spent a few fun years there. I didn’t do well for my UPSR though, for which I was told by my father to walk back home by myself. It was the first time ever that I had to walk some 3 km from the school to my house. It was an experience and it told me that my father would not tolerate failure from me.
Then I was sent off to an arabic medium school. SM Ugama Arab Pasir Mas to be exact. The only time in my life that I remember that I can speak 3 languages. Then disuse caused a memory relapse. I did quite ok for my PMR, shared the top spot with 17 other friends from my school. Even got a few invitation to award ceremonies. Then I went off to a boarding school, there I met great people, got a few best friends. It was there also that I was sent off to Japan to attend the ISS (International Science School) at Tokyo Univ. It made me so proud that I flunked my SPM. Which to my surprise, my parents took it quite well. :p
Luckily I still managed to get into matriculation at Kolej Mara Kulim, there I almost flunked myself again, all because I let myself fall in love with a girl. But I survived the ordeal, managed to get myself to USM. Although I didn’t get the course that my mom really wanted me to take up, that is medicine. Which was lucky coz I don’t have the aptitude to be a doctor. But I did get my 2nd choice that is Applied Biology, though I did want to change my course into Computer Sc, but never did follow through that idea. For five years I struggled with my studies, extending my study for 2 years where I should have finished my course in 3 years time. But I did enjoy myself learning to juggle my studies with my active university life, what with participating in programmes organized by the univ and taking up posts in 2 society. One was the Persatuan Mahasiswa Pahang, which sounded weird to some ppl because I was from Kelantan 🙂 The other being the Pembimbing Rakan Sebaya, a stint that was short lived because I don’t see them having activities that were beneficial to ppl at all. During all that I was also taking up part time jobs, helping lecturers with their research or taking care of a cyber cafe for a friend or being a temporary teacher.
I guess all that enriched my university experience unlike most other ppl who just breezed thru univ. After 5 long years I finally graduated with an honours degree in Aquatic Biology. Then while waiting around for my convocation, the school that I used to be a temporary teacher called me in to fill in a post. That sort of cemented me in the education world. Having had some experience that caused me to be determined to become a better teacher I applied for KPLI. And that’s where I was the whole of 2005, studying to become a teacher at MPIK (Maktab Perguruan Ilmu Khas).
Eventhough I believe that my 26 years could have been better but I would never have changed one bit of it. Because, I believe it is all those experience that has caused me to become who I am today, and eventhough I have not come far in this world I am still proud of myself 🙂
Now let us see what the next quarter of century will hold for me 🙂
Burpppsss, kenyang gila…. lama gila dah tak melantak sesuka hati 😮 Keluar ngan bebudak archi tadi, gi makan kat satu kedai ikan bakar, masakan dia boleh tahan la jugak. Cuma ikan bakar yang satu tu rasa kureng sket, cam ikan sangkar jer. Yang ikan masak 3 rasa tu memang dah ok sangat dah.
Bebudak ni semua makan cam org kebulur tadi (termasuk aku) … memang style makan cam dah 4 hari tak jumpa nasi. (dah la ada sorang tu nama panggilan nyer :monkey: ) Laju jer semua ekekekek. Sampai ada sorang tu tak sempat sentuh pun sayur kangkung tetiba jer dah abis… Aku pun tak sempat nak merasa sangat tomyam.. tetiba jer mangkuk tomyam jadi tempat letak tulang ikan…
Aku plak dok asyik mengorder sotong goreng tepung… nyam-nyam sedap sungguh. seb baik la terasa nak balik kalau tidak aku rasa order lagi satu pinggan sotong goreng tu. Huhu… kawan-kawan esok gi makan sotong goreng lagi jom.. tp sotong goreng jer la.. bwahhahaha
Ok dah la tu merapu perut pon cam sendat lagi… elok la aku berehat seketika….
Spent almost half of the day today in quiet reflections. It was very refreshing, trying to look back to what I’ve achieved this year. December is always a time of reflection for me. A month that I call my moody month 🙂 Felt rather weird and bad this year… because I’ve achieved nothing of significance this year.
Caused tons of problem :p Neglected a few important persons in my life. Maybe there is still time to mend the relationship maybe not. But for now, being alone is what I want. :rolleyes: Got a few calls last night and made a few calls 🙂 Thanks to those ppl for understanding.
Anyway, I watched The Last Samurai. It was superb, at least to me. It was pitiful though coz I sometimes couldn’t hear what they was saying., blame the stupid CD. But the conversations and the thoughts presented in the movies was refreshing and provided insight and also gave some reason for my brain to be working 🙂 Highly recommended 😀
I have a luau tonight, still in planning though. Wonder where we will end up having our dinner. Is it some cheesy fast food restaurant again or somewhere more mundane 🙂 We will have to wait and see…