29 April 2004

What Should A Guy Do?

By Rahman Pauzi

Yeah what should a guy do? when told that a girl likes him, by her good friend too. Should he act indifferently in front of the girl or just run off? I chose to act indifferent at first, but I realized it was stupid. I was just delaying something that is inevitable. Something that at the end of the day I have to face again. And yes, I have told in her face that I don’t have any feelings for her, though not in a direct manner.
And inevitably her friend barged in again, and I had to tell her to stop matchmaking and to stop giving hope to the girl. It’s not the fact that I have a girlfriend or even another girl in mind, it’s just the fact that I’m just happy being single, finding joy in being single, without needing to think if what I do in my everyday life would lead to my other half hating it or just being plain jealous. As always the best friend refused to see that a guy can be happy single. O yeah single is soooo mundane, so I told her ask your friend this “Does she wants to experience the reason why my other girlfriend dumped me? If yes she is welcomed to a 3 month relationship with me”. Yes 3 month is my marker point, my relationship rarely lasted beyond that point. But heck no, she says “Do not let past relationship clouds your judgment and hinder you from loving and being loved”. I should have told her that love is good and all fine with me, but the important part is, I want to be happy. Not loving someone and being utterly miserable. Those days of mucking around is over. I hope. I’d rather flirt around than having an unstable relationship, and cause more pain to myself and whoever it is that is unlucky enough to be my partner.
That’s being said, I truly hate it when girls have the opinion that all single guy are out to find a girl (basically themselves). No, not all guy and least of all me, while I can be seen as rather flirtatious all I want is a friend.
Sorry if this entry hurts some people, but I have to break it out one way or another.
:rose: Adieu
p/s: Exam is over, I’m at home again 🙂