Woke Up In The Dead Of The Night

Woke up around 3 am today, not surprising though, been doing this for quite a while… sleeping early and waking up wayyyy early… slept at 11 and woke up at 3, guess nowadays my supposed limit is 4 hours…. but heck I still continue on sleeping most of the times..
Just that today I felt that I needed to write something before it goes away altogether from my mind… I’m still thinking of something that happened a few weeks back. What happened surely fits my title… it was surreal…


As some may well know, I’m still on friendly terms with my first gf.. even after breaking up with her we can still talk civilly and still do keep in touch a bit (the same can’t be said of my other ex). The break up was actually very civil, but the bickering that ensued afterwards was crazy.
Anyway… I called her out of the blue a few weeks ago just to exchange info, current status, asking where she is working now… (she has a habit of changing jobs every now and then) and the conversation did dipped a bit into my love life… and we talked a bit, told her I’m single and not really interested to get it on with another girl soon. And I think she was actually havin fun mentioning some of my other flings. At some point I thought out it was lucky that she doesn’t know the details, but somehow I felt she knows (a lot of her friends are my good friends, info will leak somehow)
Then we moved on to other matters and stuff…bla bla and so on… Then she had to hang up coz there was another call on the other line.. I think it was her current bf or something… she will never tell me who they are (or he?) I suppose she still thinks that I’d be jealous (wtf la it’s been 4 years)
And the weird part came later on, as she sms-ed me and said “I hope you are happy with ur life now, and there is something that I’ve never said but I’m going to say it now, I am sorry for what had happened between us before”. Her sms felt weird… coz for one I know her as someone who rarely says sorry, even if she knows that she is in the wrong. And mind you this girl is very strong headed… And that sms coming from her after 4 years felt surreal…
Maybe she felt that she had done me wrong (she asked for the break-up) maybe she was just trying to comfort herself… who knows… but the relationship was over years ago and I did feel it was a bit useless to bring the matter up again. And it wasn’t like that I didn’t forgive her or anything… it’s been 4 years I’m not that cruel to not forgive a person over something that she said out of spite. And I did do some things that I regret doing and have never done with my consequent gfs…
Oh I better go and continue sleeping don’t want to be sleepy all day long…
Adieu Rose

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