Archive for March, 2004
Kejamkah Aku Bila Aku Berbuat Baik?
5Berlaku kejam tapi baik, berlaku baik tapi sebenarnya kejam…. mana lebih elok? Buat baik kat org tu sebab kesian kan dia tapi sebenarnya kejam.. sbb tipu org tu… cemana yer?
Baik kah seseorang itu kalau dia mencintai seseorang kerana terpaksa…. tapi apakah dia juga kejam kerana dengan selamba mengecewakan seseorang… susah nak buat pilihan dlm hidup ini. Ada org kata.. cintailah org yg menyintai kita dan bukannya org yg kita cintai.. tp benda tu payah utk dilakukan… bukan apa.. hati org ni bukan leh main ikut suka jer nak suruh suka kat sapa.. nak sayang kat sapa.
Jadi apakah seseorang kejam apabila dia bercakap terus terang… menunjukkan kepada org itu segala bentuk kekejaman atas dunia ini? Apabila dia mematahkan hati org? Menyedarkan tentang hakikat sebenar? Atau apakah dia lebih kejam apabila dia menyembunyikan semua itu… hanya menceritakan kebaikan.. melindungi ia dari segala keburukan….
Aku rasa lebih kejam kalau sembunyikan hal sebenar… sbb kita tak boleh sembunyikan benda tu secara berterusan.. menipu secara berterusan… pasti akhirnya akan terbongkar juga rahsia… kalau terbongkar… bukan kah lagi kejam jika dia tahu hal yg sebenar? Entahlah… terserahlah pada pendapat masing masing… mana yg lebih elok.. mana yg lebih tepat…. mungkin utk satu satu keadaan lebih elok berlaku kejam.. utk keadaan lain sebaliknya?
Kuasa ditanganmu..
[Listening to: Thalia Ft. Fat Joe - I Want You (3:30)]
Equality : The Feminist’s Manifesto
5This one is going to invoke a lot of wrath upon me. But who cares. My point today is very simple. Don’t ask for something you can’t handle.
Here’s the background. I’ve known a lot of women, mature and immature alike. And a lot have sort of mentioned equality among men and women. The same opportunity and stuff. That woman should not be discriminated because of their gender. And to tell you the truth. I do respect that. Because I do believe that we should look at a person’s capability before their gender or race or whatever. But what really peeves me off these days is the fact that these people came back to me complaining…. and their complaint starts with… “I’m a girl”.
Most of these happened after I bashed them for not doing their job. Whether its at my old workplace (temp job) or my clubs… The same thing happened. Not satisfied that I gave em a mouthful. For me when these people says that they wanted equal chance. They have already stripped off their gender, meaning they can’t use it as an excuse. If they want to use their gender as an excuse, pleaseeeee don’t say that you can do anything that a man can do. It’s hard enough making decisions to empower them or not, but it’s harder when they start using gender as an excuse.. “I’m a girl, I’m sensitive you know”. Bullshit, its either you do your job or not. Gender doesn’t have anything to do with it unless I’m telling you to do manual labor or something…
Equality is equality… the same opportunity, the same job, the same mouthful and also the same right to be bashed by your boss or work mates.. I don’t usually bash people based on their gender.. but when they say “I’m a girl” Hell yeah I’ll bash them for being a girl.
If we don’t give people anything to discriminate us upon, there sure isn’t any point for them to discriminate.
p/s: And yes people do call me egoistic and a chauvinist, who cares ![]()
How Can You Forget Someone?
The topic has come up a few times lately in my conversation with friends and also with my cousin. We were talking about how can we best forget someone… how can we let someone go… and my solution at that moment seemed so simple.
I told them that when you break up with anyone… you tend to only remember the good part, the good times… all the fun things you did together.. the nice memories… and remembering this will make you depressed as you will question your judgment then.. you will ask “why did u break up with him”, “where did it all went wrong” and more whys..
When that happens never just remember the good part of your relationship.. try to remember the bad part… the part where everything went wrong.. all the hurt that u got courtesy of the relationship…. the part where bad thing happens as if on a collision course…
That’s how you forget ppl, that’s how you recover from them. Seed a little hatred and let it remind you of all that.. never too much hatred mind you for it will make you an ugly person. Whenever I miss them, and sort of want em back, I always remember the hurt they gave me.. it may make me a cold hearted person (I am) but at least I feel stronger.. empowered to control my own life. ![]()
Adieu
[Listening to: Sheila On 7 - Sebuah Kisah Klasik (4:02)]
p/s: comment closed due to severe abuse by ppl thinking this is a place to talk about their ex. get help ppl!!!
It Has Been A Good Day
1Today is practically wonderful… woke up early…. had a light conversation with both my parents… while watching ppl working on the new garage. (Did I mention that my dad is building a new garage.. supposedly for my sis’ car when she get transferred back to Kelantan). Then my mom said to me.. ur still having that bad back of yours? I said yes. She said why don’t you go and see a tukang urut (a masseur just doesn’t sound right). So we did.. happens to be he’s an old childhood acquaintance… and now my whole body feels great.. except my feet.. urat terik ooooo… Got back home.. had a lil nap.. got a misscall from my cousin. And also an sms from a guy in penang… which said that he has just popped some money into my bank account.. yahooo.. esok gi shopping (cam ada tempat nak shopping jer kat kelantan).
A very good day indeed….
Adieu
[Listening to: The Beatles - I Feel Fine (0:-1)]
I’m Being Stalked
5Late breaking news… I’m being stalked.. DAMN!… got a weird misscall just a few minutes ago. I try to pick it up but IT hangs up on me.
Later on I got an sms, “Hi, is this RAHMAN. ” , I replied a yes and got “Just making sure its u, sorry for disturbing”. When I asked back who it was all I got was “You don’t need to know who I am”. And I tried pressing for an answer and yet I got this. “You won’t like it if you knew who I am, anyway I’m a new friend”.
I’m under the impression its someone I don’t like, a new person I met? and even knows that I’m gonna go get a temp job. What the heck….
If IT wanna be friends, I need to have a name.. a gender at the least.. so I can call it a bastard or a bitch
Sheeesh…. psycho meets psycho… If you are reading this your gonna be doomed with a lot prank calls at 4 am in the morning…. better tell me who you are right now!
Update: I know who it is now.. someone I ignored over the last weekend but made the mistake of letting her know my number.. Sheesh.. buat ngeri jer… oh well abaikan
A Trip And A Date
0Watched 2 movies recently.. that’s Euro Trip and 50 First Dates.

EuroTrip, as the name implies is a story about a trip to europe. But I can tell u this, the premise for the movie was lame. Basically its about this boy who discovered that his internet friend is actually a gorgeous looking german babe. And decided to seek her out. And that’s it… yet after all that it was rather entertaining. If you consider stupid jokes entertaining that is
Its a different thing for 50 First Dates, another Happy Madison / Adam Sandler movie. As usual there’s the load of slapstick jokes. But not much as this is a romantic comedy, which I consider as sweet. Adam Sandler falling in love with Drew Barrymore, which happens to have a short term memory problem… She can’t remember anything that happens the day before… The sentiment of a guy who has to make a girl fall in love with him every other day is sweet. A recommended viewing for the young couples hehe
So officially according to my Monkey Factor Rating System I’d give EuroTrip
p/s: Up Next… Starsky & Hutch, Big Bounce… any suggestion on what movie I should get next…
Home..
0It’s been a few days since I got back home. Was working on my computer, getting it to run smoother. Deleting all those unnecessary software by formatting it hehe.
The formatting part and installing alone took 1 whole day. Huhu, still have a lot of important software to install…
I’m never gonna get it done this month ![]()
Everything has pretty much calmed down after I got home, pretty boring and mundane over here. Both my cousin is still at univ, so I dont really have anyone to bug huhu….
I think its high time that I get started on a new theme, but I’m so lazy. Was talking with a friend the other day. I might change the whole layout, but considering the amount of sidebar info that I put, that would probably cause the sidebar to move to the left? So I’m thinking of perhaps sticking with the website overal layout, just maybe tinker with the decor a bit.
Work will start as soon as I find the installer for Flash MX in my stack of CDs. I think I’ll do another banner or something of the like
I also need a new
Photoshop 8.0 installer, my last one was buggy. ![]()
Ok that’s for now.. gonna go and call my cousin.. hehehe
Old Friend, Best Friend & Platonic
0A couple of days back I met an old friend of mine. A friend I consider as a close friend, best friend you might even say. I’ve not seen her for close to a year. I’ve been busy with my studies and she with work. She came to see me ultimately with the purpose of inviting me to her wedding this May. And to tell you the truth, its one of the best news that I’ve heard for a while.
I’ve known her for 5 years now. A relationship that at first started by me taking the same paper with her, and me joining the same study group. Later on, from good friends we grew to the best of friends. Eventually her mom took me in as her “anak angkat”. Sort of the thing moms do isn’t it. To explain the true nature of my relationship with her would be very hard. Sometimes its easier to say that the relationship is platonic, but it isn’t just that. Trust with her is not an issue. I could trust her with many of my secrets, and I believe its the same with her. We could for hours about everything in the world and still has more to say.
Come to think of it, the most amazing of things with her is the fact that I’ve never had an argument with her. Not even one. And I’ve never been angry at her too. Perhaps its because she is so agreeable.. perhaps not.
Congratulations on your engagement Lynn, sorry I couldn’t be there. I promise to be at your wedding though ![]()
The Forgotten Friend
5As usual I was lurking in my fav channels on IRC. So I saw this nick which struck it as familiar. So I msged her (yes the nick was obviously a girl)
me : helo
lil girl : helo, asl pls
me : 25 m
me : ur *** right?
lil girl : ahah
me : (full name here) penang? cgl?
lil girl : who are u???
me : im rahman laaa
lil girl : sapa rahman?
lil girl : how u know me ???
lil girl : i got to go call me 01********
me : sure
Continued On Phone
me: hey there… where are u right now…
lil girl : melaka…
me : heheheh
lil girl : how do u know me…
me : we met once, at bakti’s cafe
lil girl : can’t remember that…
me : it was a long time ago… 5 years back
lil girl : i cant remember anything…
me : it’s your memory.. i have nothing to do with that… ekekek
me : would you like me to tell anything about u..
lil girl : sure
me : u have 2 bro n 1 sis…
me : u once work part time at a gas station after spm
me : ermm u play tennis and hockey for penang…
me : ur birthday is ********
lil girl : how could u remember that…
me : now that’s a secret….
me : i’ve got to go now…
lil girl : call me again eh next time .. it’s been a while since I talked to u.. ![]()
me : sure
Ahahahahh what a day what a day…
The power of a lil note kept somewhere..
wouldnt it surprise u that it could leave someone completely perplexed .. but then again u have to know where that note is ekekeke ![]()
I have a very bad memory mind u… and I always leave down notes about ppl I know lying around… just in case I need to know things about them.. owh don’t worry .. i keep the notes in a safe place.. nobody but me would know how to retrieve them ![]()
Point for today : Remember ur friends ![]()
Adieu
I’m Back With A Smile
2Fuuuu fuuu, I’m back! The short hiatus is over… My exam is finally over. With a bang I might say…
Feels good to get that over and done with.
So today I went out with a friend and watched Monalisa Smile. And at the end of the show… i felt as if tears were coming out…. so you might call me a sissy for watching a girly movie and almost crying, but heck the fine acting got to me. Not to mention the fact that I’ve always loved the two Julias
And I might say that Julia Stiles acting this time around is ermm not plain, but somehow she managed to keep a low tone that she almost blend in with the other co-actors and leaving Julia Roberts and Kirsten Dunst to take the limelight. The human drama depicted in it was also fine even if it mainly centres on the plight of a feminist. (A fine point to note that is you are for male rights u are called a chauvinistic pig. But not the same for a feminist?). Also to note this is the first film produced by Red Om Production. Thats Moder backward. Moder happens to be Julia Roberts’s latest husband.
A must see for ppl who wish to save budget and see all 3 fine actresses together in a movie
And for the storyline too of course ![]()
Ok. Till next time
Adieu
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