Archive for April, 2003

Tiring Indeed

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What is most memorable about today?
definitely all the calls i’ve been getting… let me think,
my mom called….. from the house…
my dad called while on his way to penang…
the clerk at ITC called about the quotation…..
the director of ITC called…. something about MDC ppl coming along on monday…
phew… and that was not just one time each
at least once or twice……
and today i finished moving house, more of getting out of the house… packing all my stuff… and sending them back to kelantan… a truck load… a cabinet, cupboard…. 2 tables…. huhu…. and a bicycle …
that felt crazy…. now im boarding up with a friend at USM’s hostels… waiceh…
felt crazy and relieved, settled that… now how about getting some work done… i think i can finally sit down and tomorrow start again on the website that i need to finish… the client hasnt given me the info for the website yet.. still a bit blur on what to write over there… meeting a client tomorrow.. have to another quickie…
to sum it all up.. today is very tiring but feelss so satisfied…. hehehe

A very cold night

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shivers, its a very cold night tonight, with the rain and all….. just finished a discussion/meeting session with my partners… got some stuff to be carried out… which reminds me .. I need to finish packing.. got to move out from the house tomorrow…. My dad is coming to pick up the stuff that I want to send home… mostly furnitures that I wont be using .. considering that I’m going to stay at the hostel for a while…
pheww what a day has this been… just finished chatting with my angel… it’s been a while since the both of us last chatted… since she started her practical actually… it felt good talking to her.. someone who I can really talk to and relate stuff… need more time with her.. so much to catch up, 7 days i think of reduced communication…. she’s been crying herself to sleep thinking of me…
I miss her… still do even right after i’ve just talked to her a minute ago…
*no bg sound, just the silence of the night*

Bidadari II

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Bidadari II by karlbum
Kawanku,
Dikala diriku gembira,
Kaulah penyambung ketawa,
Dikala ku kesepian,
Kaulah sebaik teman.
Sahabatku,
Dikala aku kehilangan,
Kaulah penyuluh jalan,
Dikala aku duka,
Kaulah penghilang lara.
Kekasihku,
Dikala aku mencintaimu,
Kau mencintaiku,
Dikala aku memerlukan belaianmu,
Kaulah yang setia membelaiku.
Bidadariku,
Dikala gembira, duka dan memerlukan,
Kaulah kekasih, sahabat dan juga kawan,
Kaulah yang segala diri ini perlukan,
Kaulah segala yang kuimpikan.
Kaulah segalanya bagi ku,
Hanya dirimu yang ku mahu.
-rahman-
2.27 am 8 mac 2003
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for our third month….

Bidadari

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Bidadari ku….
Aku termenung sendiri,
meramal mimpi,
menilik nasib,
pada bintang yang sepi,
adakah cahaya kan kembali
menerangi hati ini,
adakah kau kan kembali,
menyinari hidup ini,
aku terpaku sayu,
mengenang saat itu,
diriku terasa bagaikan,
tanpa arah dilautan,

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Staring At The Cloudless Sky

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Staring At The Cloudless Sky
by karlbum
I lay on my back,
staring at the cloudless sky,
gazing at the fields of stars
withered hopes and shattered dreams,
amidst the ruins of battle,
i wish for no more than,
for a drop of water
amongst the lonely battlefield,
beyond the aftermath of disgrace,
i hear foot falls,
i hear you,

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It’s Raining Outside

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I’m stuck at the office, it’s raining pretty bad outside there… supposed to have a meeting with my friends at 10, think it has to do with the tender for the 40 computers that the pharmacy school wanna buy.
Today has been quite a productive day… went to the treasury to see what I owe the univ, woweee my fees summed up to a total of 1k++++++ …. that’s quite a sum… think I’m going to go and pay that in a few more day…. The afternoon was quite ok, I was designing a new banner for the website… made it in both flash and gif… but the flash wont show up… I left it like there.. still stuck on what the solution should be… i can have a swf file in every directory .. sheesh…
and while I was doing that I was surprised by my GF going online… a big surprise.. seems she had half the day off.. hehe…. lucky me….
But as I was enjoying her companion, got a call from “tokei cc”, something about the internet server going haywire… have to go and see it for myself….. luckily my GF wanted to have a bath… that saved me from having to go away while she was online….
So here I am.. back at the office.. still thinking about the flash thingy…. how do we do it… seems i just have to port it to a gif file then.. but the tricks I did with it in flash would be hard to copy in a gif…. oh well… I have a whole night ahead… pheww… think that’s enough for now….

Not A Bad Day

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Phew, today felt good for some reason. Met my lecturer to ask about my grades, he smiled … and said I dont know… hah … a joke for sure.. then realizing the guy was really busy (editing biography for his publication) I toss a few more stuff and got what I wanted to know (I’ll pass he says) and quickly made my exit… and that ended my escapade with him.
The rest of the day was not so eventful, spend most my afternoon and evening working on this journal, and achieved a few things…. the layout looks better for instance… still thinking of adding a photo album and a guestbook later on…
The highlight of the day is surely, me calling my gf… Felt really good hearing her voice after a few days…. got my 5 minutes of her and I already felt lightheaded….. haven’t been able to call her for a few days… and i felt relieved to hear her voice…. doesn’t want her to think i’ve neglected her… when I really do miss her sooo much….

A Day Gone Awry

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Yesterday was another supposedly boring day, with supposedly nothing special, but things happen which I can’t stop. No wonder I had this bad feeling from the start. Got to the CC just fine, perhaps a bit late, but considering all the odds, I was wondering how I made it to the CC at all. Then feeling in a good mood, I built this webbie. Huhu… not bad for a person who’s been away from it all for a few months. Felt good for a moment there.
Now I’m feeling weird all over again. I promised myself I’d call my gf. But then, heh…. how the heck am I going to call her? Public phones are too goddamn far away. And no credit on the phone RM0.01 to be exact… Now I’m feeling guilty for not calling her and knowing how she topped up her phone 7 times this month alone just to call me. (not to mention calling her sis but then again it’s her sis). Feels so down these days.. Perhaps coz I miss my gf too much. Used to be able to talk to her everyday, either on IRC or over the phone. But now, its been 2 days since I last heard from her.
Sheesh, why didnt I call her.
And now I’m sleeping late again. 3 am and still not sleeping. What is happening with me. Tomorrow I need to meet my lecturer. This has turn to be the most difficult time of my life.
I’m seriously overstressed these days. I suspect that I’m getting crazier by the day…..

A New Beginning

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3208 days
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I was bored, stressed out perhaps. And suddenly out of the blue a desire to create inspired me. I wanted a new website, so I thought what the heck. Let’s go, have some fun while at it. And maybe learn something new in the process.
I was thinking of a theme, and I believe it would be best if i dedicated this one to my soulmate. So here I am, a few hours after I started the project. Guess it will be some sort of a blog. People often commented of how hard it is to make me tell them what I truly feel, and I truly feel I need to change that somehow, more of so because my gf mentioned that too… so what the heck. Here is a place for me to put down my thoughts into writing….

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